Tuesday marks the 91st birthday for Kim Novak, the star of Alfred Hitchcock’s 1958 film Vertigo, who walked away from Hollywood over five decades ago.
“She’s spending her birthday having a picnic on her property with friends and lots of fudge,” says her longtime manager and close friend Sue Cameron.
Life is sweet these days for Novak, who lives quietly on the Oregon coast, surrounded by her beloved horses.
In honor of her 91st birthday, read on for an interview from 2021 in which Novak shared why she left Hollywood and found her true self.
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Over 50 years ago, Kim Novak, the enigmatic star of Alfred Hitchcock’s Vertigo, walked away from Hollywood. The woman who had once been the No. 1 box office draw in the world put her belongings in a van and drove north, first to Carmel, California and then two decades later to Oregon, to live her life as an artist.
“I had to leave to survive,” she tells PEOPLE. “It was a survival issue.”
“I lost a sense of who I truly was and what I stood for,” says Novak in a rare interview to talk about her new book, Kim Novak : Her Art and Life. published by the Butler Museum of American Art.
“I fought all the time back in Hollywood to keep my identity so you do whatever you have to do to hold on to who you are and what you stand for,” she explains.
“I’ve never done one of those tell-all books that they wanted me to do for so long, and I thought this is the kind of book I’d like to do,” she says of her art book. “Actually, I had written my autobiography and it was almost complete but I had a house fire and the house burned down and I made no copies. I just couldn’t go through it again because I had spent so much time. But it was okay because it was a catharsis just to do it.”
After starring in Picnic (1955) with William Holden, The Man With the Golden Arm (1955) and Pal Joey (1957), opposite Frank Sinatra, and Vertigo, with Jimmy Stewart, Novak was at the height of her career but still under the control of the studio.
As she writes in her book’s introduction, “I was both dazzled and disturbed to see me being packaged as a Hollywood sex symbol. However, I did win my fight over identity. I wouldn’t allow [Columbia Pictures chief] Harry Cohn to take my bohemian roots away by denying me my family name. Novak. I stood my ground and won my first major battle.”
Cohn wanted her to change her name to Kit Marlowe, telling her that audiences would be turned off by her Eastern European roots. She refused. In the late ’50s, she defied him again when she began dating singer Sammy Davis Jr. against his wishes and she fought to live her life as an independent woman.
“There was constant pressure to be seen and not heard,” writes Novak, “especially if you had a pretty face.”
“In Hollywood a lot of people assume who you are, because of the character you play, but also just because of who they expect you to be, how they expect you to dress,” she says. “It influences you because if you’re in some gorgeous sequined gown, you can’t run along the ocean and run on the beaches.”
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“I kept feeling like I was going deeper and deeper, lost in almost like a quicksand, where it’s swallowing you up, your own personality, and I’d started to wonder who I am,” she explains. “I realized needed to save myself.”
She found peace living and painting in the Rogue River Valley of Oregon and notes, “I needed the Pacific Ocean to inspire me, the animals, the beauty.”
“I wanted to live a normal life and a life with animals,” says the actress, who had always loved drawing and painting as a young girl growing up in Chicago. She was awarded two scholarships to the Chicago Art Institute before she was spotted by a talent scout on a trip to L.A. and her life changed course.
Once she left Hollywood, Novak returned to her twin passions: art and animals. “My teachers were the animals, not just dogs and cats, but other animals, horses and llamas, whom you have to meet half way, because they’re not ready to accept humans. I had to learn to win them over,” she says. “They understand a person who’s genuine so I had to become more real and that made me rely on my inner self — and that also encouraged me to paint. Everything seemed to flow from that.”
“You learn how to count on, not how you look, which is a big thing as a movie star, especially if you were recognized because of how you look,” she adds. “That can be a difficult thing when you change — but looks had nothing to do with it.”
She met second husband, Robert Malloy, an equine veterinarian, in the late ’70s, when he paid her a house call to treat one of her Arabian horses. She called him her “soul mate.” He died last December.
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“I don’t feel 87,” says Novak. “I don’t keep tract of the time. If I did, I’d be an old lady and I’m not an old lady. I’m still riding my horse. I stay as healthy as I can.”
In 2012, Novak revealed she’d been living with bipolar disorder. “I don’t mind being open about who I am because these are all characteristics which make you who you are, especially as an artist,” she says. “Now, of course, I have medication for it but the best medicine of all is art.”
She’s proud of her favorite films, including Vertigo and Bell, Book and Candle (1958), and has fond memories, especially of her friend and costar Jimmy Stewart. Says Novak: “He didn’t let Hollywood change who he was.”
“People can remember me in movies but I want them to see me as an artist,” says Novak, whose paintings were exhibited at a 2019 retrospective at the Butler Museum in Youngstown, Ohio. “What’s great about painting is, you become the director too. No one’s telling you how to do it. You get to direct the whole thing.”
“I’ve been influenced a lot by Hitchcock in my work because he did mysteries and at first glance, I want my painting to be a mystery,” she says. “I love being the director, the producer, the actor in my paintings.”
“This is who I am. I want people to see I was not just a movie star.”
Looking back, Novak says, “I’m so glad I didn’t do the tell-all book, where you write all about your love life. That wasn’t who I was. This book tells who I am. I just needed to be free.”
I set out in my RV to scatter my mother’s ashes, but along the way, I met a man who uncovered a startling family secret
After my mother passed away, I thought I knew everything about her life. But a sudden discovery during my journey led to a truth I never expected. What I found changed everything I thought I knew about my past… and my future.
After my mother’s death, I was completely alone. I stood in the empty apartment, the silence around me pressing in. My father left us before I was born. The walls, once filled with her presence, were bare, stripped of life.
“What do I do now, Mom?” I whispered aloud.
I always have the answers. But now… Now it’s just me.
I sold the apartment. It was a painful reminder of Mom’s last days, and I couldn’t bear to stay there any longer.
I had a vague plan to head to the small town where she once lived. To my surprise, she had a property there and left it to me.
“I’m going there, to where you loved,” I murmured.
I walked through the empty rooms in the apartment one last time and shut the door, locking it for the last time.
“Goodbye, Mom,” I whispered, feeling a tear slide down my cheek.
Outside, I handed the keys to the real estate agent. I had nowhere to go. Two suitcases were waiting for me at a hotel. Nothing more.
I glanced at the pile of mail in my hands. Today’s newspaper caught my eye. I flipped through it until a small ad jumped out at me:
“FOR SALE: 1985 RV. Runs, needs TLC. Priced to sell.”
It was a way to leave everything behind. Without overthinking, I drove straight to the address listed in the ad.
The RV sat in a driveway, looking worn and beaten, even more so than I expected. Rust streaked its sides. The paint faded to a dull gray. But it didn’t matter. It represented freedom to leave that place and pain behind.
A gruff man stood beside it, clearly eager to get rid of it.
“You here for the RV?” he asked, glancing at me as I approached.
“Yeah,” I said, scanning the vehicle. “I saw the ad.”
“It’s old, but it runs. Took it out last week. You interested?”
I ran my hand over the chipped paint. It wasn’t perfect, but neither was I.
“How much?”
“Cash only,” he said, naming the price.
I didn’t hesitate. “I’ll take it.”
“You sure? You don’t want to look under the hood?”
“No,” I shook my head. “I just need to go.”
Minutes later, the deal was done. I climbed into the RV, the smell of old leather and dust filling my senses as the engine growled to life.
“Okay, Mom,” I whispered, gripping the wheel, “I’m doing this. I don’t know what’s waiting for me, but I have to go.”
I decided to head straight to the hotel where my suitcases were waiting. I wasn’t going to stay the night there as I had originally planned. No more waiting.
Grabbing my things, I loaded them into the RV, eager to leave everything behind. The open road was calling, and I was ready to answer.I drove for hours. The hum of the radio kept me company as the sun dipped below the horizon. The darkness slowly crept in.
I was tired, my eyes growing heavy. The road stretched on, seemingly endless, and I just wanted to reach a place where I could close my eyes for a few hours.
And then, without warning, the RV sputtered. The engine gave a loud, ominous cough, and before I could react, it died completely. I let out a frustrated sigh, gripping the steering wheel.
“Of course, this has to happen now,” I whispered to myself, staring out into the pitch-black forest surrounding me.
I tried the ignition again, hoping for a miracle, but I got a weak click. Nothing.
Great! Just great! No cell service.
I stepped out of the RV and looked around.
What now?
As panic started to creep in, headlights cut through the darkness. An old pickup truck slowly came into view. It pulled up beside me. An elderly man with a kind face was behind the wheel.
The man rolled down his window. A young woman was next to him.
“You alright there?” he called out, leaning slightly to get a better look at me.
“My RV just died,” I replied. “I’m stuck.”
The man nodded sympathetically.
“Well, that’s no good. I’m Oliver,” he said, giving me a small smile. “This is my daughter, Grace.”
“I’m Emma,” I introduced myself. “Thanks for stopping. I didn’t know what I was going to do.”
Oliver glanced over at the RV and then back at me.
“Tell you what, we can tow you to the nearest station. It’s not too far, just about twenty miles up the road.”
I exhaled. “That would be amazing. Thank you so much.”
“No problem at all,” Oliver chuckled.
Within minutes, he had hooked my RV up to their truck, and we were on the move. I climbed into the backseat of the pickup, grateful to be moving again.
As soon as we hit the road, their conversation flowed easily. They teased each other, each word filled with warmth.
“You remember that time we got lost out here, right?” Oliver grinned, glancing at her.
Grace rolled her eyes. “How could I forget? You were convinced we didn’t need a map. We were lost for hours.”
Oliver chuckled. “We weren’t lost. I just took the scenic route.”
Watching them, I felt a twinge of envy. I had never had that kind of relationship with my mother. She loved me, but she was always preoccupied, her mind elsewhere.
And my father… I didn’t even know him. Their kind of connection was something foreign to me.
When we reached the station, the mechanic gave my RV a quick look and shook his head.
“It’ll take a few days to fix this.”
“A few days?” I echoed with disappointment.
My plans were suddenly on hold. Oliver saw the frustration on my face.
“You’re welcome to ride with us for a while if you like,” he offered kindly.
“We’re heading in the same direction. We’ll keep you company until the RV’s ready.”
It wasn’t just the convenience of a ride. It was the warmth they shared, something I hadn’t realized I needed until now. Of course, I agreed.
***
Later that night, we pulled into a small roadside motel. Just as Oliver was handing over the money to the clerk, something slipped from his wallet.
A photograph fluttered to the ground, catching my eye. I picked it up and froze.
“Who is this?” I asked, holding up the picture.
Oliver turned, his expression shifting from casual to uneasy. Before he could answer, Grace cut in.
“Oh, that’s the woman he can’t let go of,” she snapped. “Even after Mom died, he still carries her picture around like some kind of token.”
I glanced at Oliver, expecting him to say something, but he just sighed, running a hand through his hair.
“She was someone I loved a long time ago. We were living together in the town we’re heading to. But one day, she just… disappeared. I didn’t know what happened to her. I only recently found out she had passed away. I’m going back to honor her memory.”
My heart pounded as his words sank in. The woman in that photo was my Mom.
“That’s my mother,” I whispered.
Oliver’s eyes widened. Grace did the quick math in her head.
“Wait,” she said slowly, “does that mean… you might be his daughter?”
The words hung in the air. Oliver shook his head quickly.
“No, no, that’s not possible. If that’s true, it means your mother left me while she was pregnant. And I never knew.”
“She left you because you told her you were leaving for another woman,” I said, my voice shaking. “She kept a letter. You said goodbye.”
“What letter?”
I pulled out the worn piece of paper my mother had kept all those years and handed it to him. Grace leaned over Oliver’s shoulder, her face going pale as she read.
“That’s… that’s my mother’s handwriting,” Grace whispered. “We lived in that town too… Dad? Could it all happen at the same time?”
“Yes. I was friends with your mother back then, Grace. We were close, but nothing more.”
Grace’s eyes narrowed, realization dawning. “She must have done it to be with you. She knew what she was doing.” Oliver signed.
“Emma, your mother disappeared, I was lonely. And, and… Grace’s mother was always around. She helped me through it. Over time… we started dating.”
Suddenly, everything began to fall into place. Grace’s mother had torn them apart. I turned to her with anger.
“You had a father this whole time! I had no one! Your mother ruined their relationship, and you got everything while I was left with nothing!”
Grace’s face hardened.
“I didn’t know! Do you think this was my fault?”
The argument grew heated, both of us yelling. Years of resentment and grief spilled out.
“I can’t do this,” I finally said, backing away.
I couldn’t stay with them any longer, not after that. I took my suitcases and started walking down the road. I needed to reach the town to end that once and for all.
After a sleepless night of traveling in a stranger’s car, I met with the lawyer.
“The house your mother left you is only half yours,” he explained. “The other half belongs to Oliver.”
After everything I learned, that felt like one final twist of fate. I was ready to walk away from my share. But the lawyer stopped me.
“Why don’t you take a look at the house first?” he suggested.
Curiosity got the better of me, and I agreed. The house was small but cozy.
Memories seemed to fill the space. Mom’s sewing tools were neatly arranged, her old machine still in place. Piles of fabric were stacked in the corner, waiting to be transformed.
I found framed photographs of her and Oliver, both of them young and happy. They smiled back at me.
My mother, fiery and proud, had run away because of one forged letter. She had hidden the truth all those years. But Oliver… he hadn’t come after her. He moved on, married another woman, and gave another daughter the life I never had.
That thought weighed on me heavily as I heard a car pull up outside. Oliver and Grace entered the house quietly. We sat there all together in thick silence.
“We should scatter her ashes,” I finally whispered.
Together, we did. As I watched the ashes drift into the wind, something shifted inside me. The anger I had carried began to fade.
Grace softly embraced me. “I’m sorry. I think it’s time for me to head back to my family. It’s your turn to get to know our father.”
“Thanks, Grace,” I finally whispered.
She gave me a small smile. “I hope we can move past this.”
As she left, I looked at the fabrics and the sewing machine. It was time to follow my dreams to bring my designs to life. And with my father by my side, we had all the time we needed to become the family we never had.
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